Even though my graduation ceremony is not until May – so logical right? – I’ve felt like a graduate since I’ve completed my thesis defense on September 3rd. It didn’t sink in completely at first because nothing had changed much. It started to shift in my mind when I would talk to someone and refer to myself as a student or when I would take the tram surrounded my real students commuting to College or at some point at the end of September, but when I never went back myself.
It’s such a whirlwind of emotions. Everything in my everyday life has changed and therefore what I expect from myself too. After over a couple months actively looking for a job, I’ve realized that there are many things nobody tells you about being a graduate and looking for a job. It changes your life in many ways and though I knew in my head that it would make a big change, I wasn’t expecting all the other aspects.
I’m trying to focus on the positive aspects of this time of my life. I finally have had some real time off without having to do any Uni work or an internship, I can go to the gym whenever I want and organize my days how I please, I do not have to see people everyday and pretty much never wear a bra and this is so great. I have a few down days a week where I question everything and it feels like I’ll never find a job because I’m not good enough but I try to let things just come as they are and not ponder on anything too much. Recent life events have made me see the bigger picture more and that it’s just a part of life that will pass and become a memory soon. There’s nothing I can do about people asking applicants to have between 2 to 7 years of experience for a job. I can’t change anything. It’s really an opportunity for me to learn to let go of things I cannot control, no matte how hard it is (hello, I’m Gaby and I’m a control freak). But at the end of the day, it’s just life and I have to accept everything that comes my way because I believe that everything happens for a reason.