Okay so yesterday was my half-birthday.I’m Halfway Through my 25th Year on Earth. If you grew up with a mother like mine you’ll know that it’s a thing. Somehow.
I used to quite like them to be fair. They meant I was growing up and that’s all you want to do when you’re a kid or a teenager. You want to be free! Have your own space! Earn money! Go out with friends! But when you are actually a grown up it means paying bills, having to cook for yourself even when you are way too tired for that, cleaning the entire place and actually working to earn the money. Sounds less fun huh?
When I turned 25 last summer, it felt very special. I turned the age my parents were when I was born, I was half-way through my twenties and I guess it meant I was getting closer to 30 and farther from 20, which for some reason can sound a bit scary. Now half-way through this in-between year, I’m fine. I’m no going to lie but “26” looming over sounds a bit daunting but overall I have come a long way in the past 6 months.
I have pushed my fears aside to take a leap of faith and build my own business. My 24th year was quite challenging and it was then that I decided to finish my contract and start something of my own. It kept me up at night, made me stressed and filled with doubt but I am so glad I actually did it. It’s challenging and scary but I know that in the end it was the best decision for me.
Especially in the last couple months, I have been thinking a bit more about what the future holds for me. It got a bit overwhelming at times but overall very exciting. It was also during that time that I started working on my self-confidence and bad body image a bit more. At the end of 2019 I decided to cancel my gym membership because it was worsening my back problems. Following my doctors’ advice I decided to start swimming. It took a couple of times to get used to it and now I absolutely love it. I was a bit scared of having to be in a swimsuit in front of people but actually I’m totally fine. I feel great when I’m swimming, even better after and I can feel my body getting stronger and my stamina getting so much better. It also helps a lot with my mental health which is even better.
For the next 6 months, I want to keep on working on my new year goals but also to stay on track. I want to build a strong business; continue with blogging and Youtube (and Instagram!); work on staying positive regarding the future; I wish to keep on being kinder to my body and mind; and continue to listen to my feelings when it comes to making a decision. I also want to travel and explore, continue to save money and stay on top of my finances and work on my relationships.
Sounds good to me!