Whoever says being a blogger is easy hasn’t tried it. I don’t understand how people can think that a) blogging doesn’t take much time, b) it’s so easy anyone could do it and c) blogging is not a real job.
I follow a lot of bloggers who do an incredible job at basically creating a corner of the web where anyone can find reviews, tips, life advices, honest stories, inspiration, encouragement and feel like they are not alone and perhaps even, feel close to someone. It takes days to plan, create content from start to finish, promote it, respond to comments and engage. I totally get how it can become a real job for a blogger because when you want to create a great content and have amazing photography and promote it well, it takes a lot of time out of your day – and if you can be paid for this job, how amazing.
To be honest, I still have my struggles.
I often find it quite hard to get ideas for posts. I had been in a rut for the past few weeks and only this morning got ideas for the next 3 weeks – phew. I also have a hard time, some days, feeling creative with my photography. Yesterday I decided to take advantage of a few rays of sunshine to take photos for this post. I ended up taking at least 30 and was happy with none of them. I didn’t like the props I used, the layout of it all and the lightening ended up not being great. I have days where I can take photos in bulk and be so happy with them and others where I feel like such a fail.
Despite my 2018 goal (you can read them here) of trying to take more photos of myself whether it’s selfies for Instagram or just photos for the blog, I can’t seem to do it. First of all, I don’t have the courage to ask my boyfriend or sister to take some, plus, I’m pretty sure I will feel so awkward the photos will turn out bad and I will hate how I look on all of them… I’m still going to do my best but this resolutions is not going well so far.
Even though my blog keeps growing – thank you to everyone who subscribes by the way, you make me very, very happy – I still feel like I don’t know why people subscribe to my blog. I don’t feel like I’m doing that great of a job to be honest. I don’t know if it’s the imposter syndrome or something but whenever someone comments on my blog, I feel like I don’t deserve it. It definitely puts a smile on my face and it does make me feel closer to the readers so that’s what I like to focus on instead of this feeling inside of “but who am I to deserve that?”.
I think what I’m the worst at is keeping up with social media. To be fair, College takes a lot of my time but I also have a hard time tweeting. I do the odd random tweet here and there but most of the time, I think something and go to tweet it and then feel that it’s not “good enough”, or it’s stupid and not important and nobody cares. I know… The thing is, I love Twitter and scrolling to my feed to read about people’s random thoughts or see someone promote one of their blogposts and add it to my list or read it from the link. It’s amazing to learn more about people so I am going to try once school is over – in three weeks, eeeek – to make an effort to think less and type more.
When it comes to Instagram I mostly post the photograph attached to a blogpost which bothers me a bit because I don’t want my feed to be just promotion for the blog. I’d like to post more random things but again, I can’t seem to find the time to do it all at the moment but when things slow down, I’m going to do my best to try to create more content to share a more about myself and – fingers crossed – grow a bit more.
I guess every blogger comes across a few obstacles now and then and the most important thing, always, is to love what you post and just enjoy blogging in general. It should never feel like a chore or something you are uncomfortable with which is why I try to, step by step, go out of my comfort zone because in the end, that’s how you grow as a person.