I think the word of the decade is “busy”. Everyone is always running like a headless chicken trying to manage work, a social life, raising kids, hobbies, doing house work, trying to find meaning to their life, working out. It’s endless. No matter what you ask someone, the answer is always “I’m not sure I’ll have time for that”, “maybe I can squeeze that in…”, “I’m just so busy” “I have so much to do”.
And I’m absolutely guilty of that as well. I always have so much to do all the time. I work full time during the week, try to squeeze in three workouts a week, hopefully post once of twice a week on the blog, then intend to manage as many Instagram posts as possible, hope to actually be able to spend some time with my boyfriend, then I have to cook, meal plan, keep the apartment clean, grocery shop and hope to find a few hours to relax, hopefully.
It’s tiring. I sometimes feel like time is sleeping away and I’m just here taking it for granted. I’ve also, now more than ever been wishing time away. I’m not going to lie, most of the week I don’t feel neither fulfilled nor inspired. I just wait for lunch to come, then 5pm, then for the weekend to quickly arrive. It’s just waisting my time, really, and I’m not into this kind of life. I want to enjoy every single minute of it but I find it every hard with my everyday life making me feel so drained of creativity and motivation.
When the weekend comes around and I find myself having more time to write content, shoot and plan my blogging week, I’m often so tired that I feel drained of creativity. I just feel like I’m not good enough, that my content is basic, not thought-through enough (because I just have no time, ya know) and basically, that I’m failing at everything.
I often have to wait until Sunday evening to actually feel okay and find some drive back in my life. But then Monday comes around and the same happens *sigh*.
I think that’s also why I’m so looking forward to my summer break. I want to be able to wake up in the morning feeling good, rested and full of energy and creativity. I need to have time to set some things into motion for me, to manage how busy I am depending on how I feel that day.
It’s important that you manage your life however you wish to, to find a balance of some sort. For me, that’s how I’ll be happy. By doing things that fulfill me, creating a routine that works best for me and to stop wishing time away but actually spend it doing something I love and fills me up with creativity, hope and happiness.