The other days I read something on Twitter saying that next year, we’ll in living in the twenties. And it blew my tiny mind. How? What? Huh? I still remember being in 6th grade saying that by 2020 we’ll be driving flying cars. Nope. Obviously had watched too much Harry Potter…
So whilst we are still in the early two thousands (because it’s always like the years 0 to 20 of each century is lost on all of us, there is no name for it), there are still a lot of things I’d like to do. Actual creations but also a few self-improvements I’d like to work on. So, let’s dig in…
Even though I’ve come back from Paris only a couple weeks ago, I caught the traveling bug. Life is short and there are so many things to see that I can’t just stay put right? It’d be an insult to all the beauty in the world. I’d like to go back to Paris to visit my best friend, and perhaaaps go to Strasbourg/ Bruges for their Christmas market…? Oh, the dream!
I’m currently feeling very creatively restrained. I don’t have the time to do even half of what I’d like to do at the moment. I come home exhausted from work, drained from energy and usually quite depressed so creativity doesn’t flow easily and I end up struggling to be productive. On the weekends, I try to manage food shopping, spending time with my boyfriend/family and getting some content written/edited but there aren’t enough hours in the day for that.
But as I should have more time later on in the year, I will be able to fully commit to my creative outlets and I can’t wait. My goal is to stop feeling like I’m not “good enough” to create the kind of content I want to create. I want to have fun with it. I want to be proud of my work and of myself.
I’ve always loved yoga and meditation but in the past couple weeks, I’ve been obsessed. Most days, as soon as I get home I put on a Yoga with Adriene video and just relaaax. I can tell I need it, I crave it even during the day. I want to explore it more, find my peace in the practice of both. Maybe even do a 30 days of yoga challenge?
*major sigh* I’ve made improvements in the past year/couple of years of being happier with myself. I think that discovering what I want to do with my life, pinpointing more what I’m good at/bad at has helped me to be happier with myself. I follow more accounts on Instagram that promote self-love, especially boyd-wise and I can tell it’s helping. But I still have my days. Days when I’m talking to myself in a way I would absolutely not let any friend talk about themselves like that. So in the next 3 and a bit months, I will work on learning to love myself, be happy with myself without needing other people’s approval – a hard think to do for a people-pleaser.