2020 is here and I have very high hopes for this year.
Twenty-nineteen has been a weird one for me, if you read my Year in Review post, you’ll know that it was both a very hard year but also one that helped me make tough decisions that allowed me to take steps in the right direction.
And so I hope 2020 will be the year I keep pushing the boundaries of my comfort zone to reach for my dreams. The end of 2019 was very hard on me. I felt so much pressure and was so stressed that it ended up not being a very productive time. I needed to figure some things out and hopefully, it’ll help me to make clearer choices and work smarter in this new year.
The older I grow, the more I want to use my time wisely and achieve things that make me happy. I’ve always been incredibly scared of living a life that didn’t fulfill me. Seeing or hearing people talk about how unsatisfied they are with their every day life always made me so anxious. And it took me to live that for pretty much the entirety of 2019 to know that I just couldn’t keep on living like that.
I want this year to be one of growth and memories. I want to feel alive, if that makes sense. One of my favorite content creators, Tar Mar, said that on her instagram about 2019 and it resonated with me. That’s what I want. I want to feel my pulse quickening when I’m doing something scary but so exciting, I want to smile at my achievements and feel my creative juices and happiness soar when I’m travelling.
When I realized it was the end of a decade, I got quite scared and felt so much pressure, to be honest. Now I’m focusing on all the opportunities to make this year and this decade the best so far. There will be bad days and times, it’s part of the deal, but I just want to keep on improving myself and be proud of what I do, overthink less and just live.
So we’ll see what this new year brings. But in the end, it’s all down to me to make it a good one. Yes, life throws curveballs at you and that’s hard to digest, but I want to look back in a year and be proud of how I handled this new year.